someone

HI! HI! Assalamualaikum everyone. I love talking to no one actually.

Macam org giler. Sekarang ni mmg tgh dalam mood org giler.

Mana taknya Roommate balik mggu lepas, sampai skrg tak balik2. huhuhu

The reason I want to write today is because of someone. Simply touched my heart since day 1 he left for a better place. In sha Allah. 5th December 2015. Sejujurnya aku baru shj kenal dia, sejak Awal ke Scha post dlm instagram with tagged of his instagram, terjumpa masa lunch mcmtu. kat mana aku pun tak tahulah. I randomly scroll pastu click on his instagram. Tengok gambr description abt me. I remembered then he was the one saw his instagram. you know when I remember? the day he left. Aku tak kenal pun dia siapa sgt masa. what I remember dia ada tulis kat abt me, Tunku Laksama Johor dan a cancer fighter lbh kurang. aku ni dah terpinga pinga. siapalah pulak dia ni. Aku even kwn sekelas pun aku lupa nama, tak cam, aleh2 sekelas. haha. pemimpin negara ke negeri aku sejujurnya tak ambil tahu. dan tak knal pun. the first time aku tgk ig dia, dlm hai terdetik cenggini " Dia mungkin hensem lg kalau dia berisi" without understanding caption abt me dia.

The night he left, around 10oclock, tengah lepak mamak dgn family aku. tetiba Aunty Lilian ckp, anak sultan johor meninggal. At the same time phone masuk whatsapp group. saying the same thing. Pastu mummy tnya Aunty apa pangkat dia. Pastu mulut aku terkeluar " oh oh yg ada laksamana tu ke" pastu PAP PAP. Betul! Al-Fatihah.

Feeling sorrow habis, kemudian thats it. The next day, Pepagi dah otw gi Cheras sbb ada wedding. Dalam perjalanan, mcm biasa main fon. Bukak FB twitter dan Instagram. ALL ABOUT HIM. secara tidak sengaja, aku pon membaca. the first article I read is about his last permintaan ke something like that. then I cry. bersungguh ni cry. Terus dan terus search pasal dia. and keep pouring tears. I fallen in love with his attitude his kindness. and apa yg plg aku sedih, He has everything. Money ofcos. Dia ada hati yg baik. suka menolong org. very humble. he is educated (zoologist). he's funny and fun person. he has family that loves him but all of that, sekaya mana dia. dia takboleh nak buang penyakit dia. Aku tertanya apa dia rasa, apa dia react bila dia sendiri tahu dia takde masa lama mana. kalau aku ada dlm keadaan dia. aku taktahu kuat ke aku.

I guess he did everything he wish for before he left. But surely, semua org dalam dunia ni pasti ada keinginan nak berkahwin dgn org yg kita syg dan ada anak sendiri. Thats sure one of the thing he sacrifies. lucky him dia ada family. kwn2 yg syg sungguh pada dia. I wish that I could have a chance to be his friend. Could know more abt him. To make him smile. to hug him and tell him. You are an amazing person that I never met, we never know each other, we never talk, text but you make feel that I had lost somthing important in my life. Semoga kau tenang disana dan di tempatkan bersama org2 beriman.